All is Well....

Okay not to delve into the reasons why, but I found myself sitting in a local food pantry this morning. As I sat there, a woman maybe 60 or so came walking up using a walker and sat down in the chair beside me. I dont judge people, I really respect everyone equally. As I was sitting there, I dont know why but I looked down and seen this woman's feet, and they were DISGUSTING!! You could tell she hadnt bathed in god knows when, her toenails were thick with toe jam. I about spewed right then and there. Then they called her name and she got up and walked passed me and I dam near died, the stench was breath taking. It is that smell that I know all of you know what I mean, of someone that hasnt taken a bath in quite awhile.
Then as she was walking she stopped to pull her dress out of her butt crack. I just cant believe some people.
Then as I waited, they called another woman, and up walked this martialese lady, who was wearing a designer dress, 5 inch high heels, with her kid in tow wearing designer clothes as well. What the HELL??? Is this not a food pantry??? Why would people like that be allowed to get anything??? I noticed there were several like this woman too.
The question that runs through my mind at this point, is why am I being shown these things?
I do know that it wont be long and I wont be in this place at all. I do know that. Let's see this week I have been shown that I have no one, no one to help me at all. No family, no friends. Zip. Nada.
The only one that ever helped me died in April, I miss you Mom.
I know all of this is temporary, I am doing good, I will get through this and it is already past.
What is, inst shit, it is past tense.
All the people that I gave a chance to love me, and me to love them, will soon wonder where I am, why I went, and I will never tell them, they will have to figure it out.

I like this quote

Anytime anyone looks outside of themselves for guidance they always get less than when they are looking for it within.
From a workshop 4/29/06 Ashville, NC by Abraham-Hicks